They didn't believe me
The two women who know me best
When I said I'm not worried
About what might go wrong
It's not helpful I said
And it's completely out of my hands
I have confidence in the neurosurgeon
So I do not dwell on the risks
You filled us in on everything
How you will fly across the country to his hospital
And stay in temporary housing while you recover
Waiting to get cleared to fly back
I can visualize him removing the tumor
While you are intubated immobilized on the table
While thirty-six other neurosurgeons there
Watch on screen learning the technique
I do feel calm considering the uncertainty
Seeing you are ready to do this
At least for now putting aside my fear
As if my demeanor might help you
To find a place of stillness
On the day of the operation
To feel me there with you
Breathing slow deep breaths
