Saturday, June 10, 2023

when first I knew

If not for our shared calendar with the exact date 

I would just say it was the third weekend in June 

The peak of the mountain laurel bloom back then

When you proposed to hike to Lake Skenonto


With you leading the way along the Harriman trail 

Scrambling up steep slopes and down and around

Taking me to see one of your favorite places

The overlook rock where we stayed for an hour 


That’s when first I knew it was happening 

The way you looked at me and spoke to me

Us feeling a mutual desire to be close to each other

Shown in the wide smiles in the photos we took 


That's how I remember our anniversary day

When we began to become an inseparable pair

And I know you are still every bit as happy as me

Thankful we found each other


Fourteen years now hoping for many more

We who get along with no reason to quarrel

Accepting each other like we accept ourselves

Enjoying each day since then sharing our lives 


And so we celebrate our good fortune

Being with someone kind we love and respect

Someone smart and sensitive and thoughtful 

Helping each other in the way that we can

Friday, June 9, 2023

Celery Farm June 9, 2023

Ramapo Lake June 9, 2023

Thursday, June 8, 2023

the song of our selves

Playing a simple song with variations

Something I made up easy to play 

Alone by myself fingering the notes

Enjoying the sound of my clarinet


Reviving a kind of muscle memory 

An upbeat happy tune tinged with sadness

Missing my mother who encouraged me

Before death took her from that boy


She who transported me to and from

Those many weekly music lessons

And sometimes art classes for me to learn 

Drawing and painting with watercolors


Her leaving me with my homophobic father

Mouthing his slurs and disparaging remarks

Who never once came to hear me play

Yet I gained something more being on my own 


How he kept silent when I took him years later 

To see Breaking the Code performed on Broadway 

About the genius and persecution of Alan Turing 

Making a statement opposing my father's bigotry


As I string the clear note phrases together 

Into an elementary composition 

A lifetime later I can relate to Pride Month

Celebrating the song of our selves